Blog 9 – Review
I started the English with Creative Writing Degree with great trepidation!
I was worried about my age, have I left it too late to change career direction? All sorts of negatives constantly running through my head!
The first day was very nerve-racking but I met some nice people who were all in exactly the same position as me!
Unfortunately, there was a few complications with my Course, long story, and then I took poorly with a sever virus that hit me hard for over three months.
That was hard, when you miss just one lesson you miss sooooo much!
My friends and Tutors all have been a great support and helped me when the times got tough, in fact I wouldn’t have got his far without all of their understanding and help.
I’ve very nearly thrown the towel in a few times, life just kept seem to be getting in the way, my daughter was bullied and changed Schools! She’s now experiencing it at her new School, which is soul destroying for me to watch!
In between all of this, my landlord wants to move back into the house I have just spent hundreds on decorating! My mum got diagnosed as a diabetic and has been poorly. I myself had a major health scare only a few months ago! So, to think that I am actually still sat writing this, is nothing short of a miracle!
The Tutors on this course have been so unbelievably kind and understanding, I have been offered pastoral care as well as academic help, which I can’t express how grateful I am to have received such kindness.
With regards to the future and where do I see myself?
Well after all I have come through in my life, I am a born survivor, and the blips that have occurred since being on the course are minor hurdles I have had to endure!
Back in 2008 my relationship broke down, due to my ex being a lowdown, cheating snake in the grass! But that’s another story entirely!
Overnight I became a single mum to a four-year-old daughter, I was working in Recruitment at the time and my job was very demanding, as it involved a lot of travelling as I was Field Sales Manager.
It was really tough as my time was so limited with my daughter but I had to do it to keep a roof over our heads, the lesser of two evils!
A couple of years later my daughter started suffering from health issues, which in turn caused there-own series of problems!
By 2011 my daughter was diagnosed as having ‘Precocious Puberty’, which meant her body was developing way faster than it should have been!
She started her periods aged 7!!! Which was horrific to watch her go through, as she was acutely aware that she was experiencing something different to the rest of her friends.
I know it wasn’t life threatening, and I’m thankful for that, but it was traumatic in its own way, as she was constantly at the Hospital being pumped full of hormones and a cancer drug!
By December 2012 I had changed jobs, still in Recruitment but not as much travelling! I’d only been in the job about 6 months, and I was constantly getting calls from the School to pick my daughter up as she was poorly! It was a week before Christmas the Hospital told me they thought my daughter had a brain tumour in her pituitary gland as the hormones weren’t working on her!
Then…. The next day my boss called me in and said they would have to let me go, as I was taking too much time off work to be with my daughter!
By January 2013 I’d lost my car, by the April my home! We were officially homeless!
And not long after that I lost my marbles! LOL!
Thankfully my daughter didn’t have a brain tumour, she was the first child that the hormone injections had not worked on! Bloody typical!!!
So, when my daughter was in better health and we were in a slightly better place in life I decided what I was going to do with my life!
I couldn’t go back into Sales, it was too demanding and I was not capable of holding down a job like that at this point!
The only skill I thought I had a modicum of raw talent for was writing! Over the years I had wrote bits and bobs, I then started to send work off to various places, including the BBC!
I got to the last sift with a children’s script I’d wrote, which was very encouraging!
I’d never had anything published and seemed not to be getting anywhere when someone suggested a writing course might be useful!
I did some investigating on the net and came across Teesside Uni, I made a phone call, met a lovely lady and got offered a place at Uni!
So here I am, at the age of 46!!! Hoping to change my whole life!
The Course does make you evaluate life from a whole new perspective, there’s times when I have felt so inadequate and quite stupid, there was some words I couldn’t even pronounce!!! How embarrassed do I feel?
But…. When you open up and not be afraid to ask, you realise you’re not the only one in that position! So that makes you feel more at ease, and the whole point about the course is to help you gain knowledge and learn!
I found it fascinating watch the young people on the course and admire them so much, I thought they would not accept an ‘Old Fart’ on the course, but the vast majority of them have been great, very warm and welcoming.
I’ve made a few good friends along the way and if it wasn’t for their words of encouragement and kindness, I definitely would not be here now sat typing this!
I have made plans for the future…..
My intention, fingers crossed is to be my own boss!
I never want to work for an organisation again!!!
My ambition is to be a published writer!
I have some comedic poems/ditties (not sure what to call them really) that I am hopefully going to get out on YouTube soon!
I’m meeting a Producer and Camera person through Uni, we have got the meeting coming up soon, so they can help film and edit the poems. I thought I’d put them on YouTube to see what reception they get, and if it’s positive I will start touting for a publisher!
Or, after this course it’s given me idea’s that you could self-publish on things like kindle!
I’m also helping my mum get a business off the ground a she’s into spooky things!
And…. Due to my daughters bullying, I am wanting to start a ‘Be Nice Campaign’ promoting this to teenagers through Schools. I have a meeting with Simon Clarke MP soon, for him to assist me and work with me on the campaign, fingers crossed!
I have great ambitions for my future! Whether they come into fruition, is another matter but I will go down fighting trying to achieve this!
Over my lifetime, I have had to over-come much adversity, and I am truly one of life’s survivors in more ways than one! This year in particular has been a turbulent year, and I don’t want to give up on my dream of having a degree. So far, so good!
I want to make my daughter proud and give her the best life and lifestyle that I possibly can.
If? No! When I pass my degree! I want to show my daughter that anything is possible, even through adversity you can still achieve things as long as you are willing to work hard to gain them!
I’m hoping all these ambitions come true, the course is certainly making me view life from a very altered angle and teaching me so much.
And it just goes to show, that you’re never too old to keep learning new things every day! Even when your an ‘OLD FART’ LOL!